| I'm tired of feeling so lonely. I think I'm a good person. People weren't meant to be alone. Because nothing feels worse than feeling alone when you're surrounded by people. I know I'm not much but I could treat someone well. I just miss the little things. Holding hands...stuff like that. Having someone to talk to. To say goodnight to. To tell how much you care about them. I need that dynamic again. I crave it. I was hoping when I started doing some things for myself that this might just fall in to place. So far no luck. I'm not so horrible am I? I wish someone would give me a chance. Or even a look... |
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| I hate myself right now. Why is it only when I can't have you that I want you. FUCK. |
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| I hate how pathetic I've become. I lashed out at you because I'm so unhappy. It hurts me more than I thought it would to see you happy. Especially since he "reminds you of me". I said terrible things that I dearly regret. However I also think you're still moving too fast. YOU JUST MET HIM! How can you do that? I'm sorry for how I made that point but damn...then again I may not be being fair. Its just hard for me...I hate feeling so alone. I feel alone even when I'm around people. I feel alone all the time and nothing I do seems to help. I've never been good with being alone. But it seems like years since anybody has cared about me. I'm talking about feeling wanted. I know my family and friends love me but I haven't had someone...I don't even know where this is going. It's 4am and I can't sleep. I'm just laying here like a fucking bitch crying without it making me feel any better. I feel empty. What the FUCK is wrong with me... |
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| I really wish that whining got you anywhere. That being said. I'm really sick of feeling alone. What's wrong with me?
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